wars and rumors of wars

i just got done watching the new nike sb skate vid. it was short but legit. just had to share since shoes and skating have been on my mind lately. but yea... so as for my last post... i still and most likely will always feel many of the same emotions. i am who i am. i am not the best person and by no means wish anyone to ever have the life i have, but i often thank god that i have the people who i have in my life. those are the people that keep me here. from my loving gf to a friend who i have not spoken to in years to my brother who would give his life for me, i know that i have friends who truly care for me. and not just anyone can say that. there are many people on this earth would consider themselves to be without friends. to be without someone who would tell them to stop fucking up and stop letting the world bring them one step closer to the end. as much as i am blessed i feel lost and inadequate. but i have time on my side. i will be seeing my family soon. i will get to play golf with my brother and father which will make me so happy. i will be going to Ireland in less than a week with the girl of my dreams. i will get promoted. i will succeed. i will have the lord on my side. i will be more than i make myself out to be. i will surprise myself.